About a few days ago, I prayed a prayer for the LORD to ‘search my heart’ and to ‘try my mind’. I needed to see the things God sees in me that either needs to be burnt away—pride, lies, self-deception, etc—or needs to be remolded and reshaped. What I mean by remolded and reshaped can be better explained in a later blog—I am still beginning to understand it myself. What I do know is this: God sees a vision of us as His dear children. He wants us to live up to the full potential that He created us to be. Thus, if we desire Him too, He shows us things in our lives that need to be changed or burnt away. He prunes things in us and/or in our lives to be more fruitful in Godly character.
The LORD searched my heart, and saw things that He didn’t want there. What God reveals isn’t comfortable by any means, but it’s needed for our growth. I am not going to write what God showed me in my heart because that’s not the purpose of this blog. However, I can show you, O reader, what He revealed to me about what He saw in my mind. Notice, I asked for this; He responded to my prayer. Here’s steak for thought. Shouldn’t that prove in of itself that God is not a God distant from us? He wants to be near to us to work with us; He wants to have a proper relationship with us.
Well, what He revealed to me about what’s in my mind is a lack of vision for my future. It’s a wilderness mentality that Satan puts on us to make us believe that we are defined by our past miseries and present circumstances. The enemy also tries to make things happen in order to keep us in this state of hopelessness. How does he do this when God is in charge? Simple, we allow him too, and God allows him in order to teach us to trust Him. I am allowing the enemy to control my circumstances because of my lack of vision. Why? This isn’t what God had in mind for me.
Did not Jesus Christ pay the price for my sins so that He can cleanse me of my past? Did not Jesus Christ—after I was baptized into a watery grave and reborn again to new life—give me of His Spirit in order for me to live in newness of life in the present? Why then do I not have a great and positive vision of my future? God prophesied through Jeremiah in Chapter 29 and verse 11: “I know the thoughts that I have toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope”. He wanted to give that to the captives of Judah of Jeremiah’s day. How much more does He want that for me, a child of the living God?! O how little is my faith!
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